Unhappily, as you will find out for yourself, God is not the answer. And faith is a false substitute for the answer.
Count Tolstoy spent much of his later years searching for the meaning of his life. For someone who had everything in life - fame, fortune, family, freedom - he wanted more; he wanted to know why. He studied science, history and philosophy, as well as the great religions of the world. He consulted the greatest teachers, scientists, philosophers and theologians, but he could find none to answer the simple question of existence. All that anyone could tell him was that man and the universe exists, but that there was no explanation for it. No matter how he posed the question, it all came back to the point that life was meaningless; and he knew no more than he knew before. Then, in the end, he ceased to doubt, and took solace in knowing the truth about man’s false beliefs. See Leo Tolstoy, A Confession and Other Religious Writings (1879-82).
In 1901, Tolstoy was excommunicated from the church by the Russian Synod and placed on a watch list of subversives by the Czar’s government.